Ok. ***deep breath***
The project has taken a slight turn, in that I am no longer thinking of the meditation aspect as a large part of the concept. After studio visits with Byron Kim and Tom Burckhardt it became clear to me what it is I want the final install to look like. Both Mr Kim and Mr Burckhardt, in our conversations, pointed out that if I want this to be a meditation -- and be seen as a meditation -- I should consider narrowing my focus to two or three mediums, used repetitively. This absolutely made sense. However........ it felt wrong. My gut said that I do not want this project to be seen as meditative by the viewer. I want it to feel frenetic and desperate and, well, quite frankly a little crazy -- really, the opposite of meditative.
It's not that the work isn't still meditative on a personal level, it's just that it's more of a mountain climbing sort of meditation, rather than a focused, quiet breathing meditation.
Last week I had to write my artist statement/bio for our exhibition catalog. I think it pretty much sums up the nature of what i'm doing:
Amy Cubberly-Yeager grew up in a small community just outside of Toledo, Ohio. She earned her BFA from Bowling Green State University with a dual specialization in Drawing and Painting. She also studied for a short time at Studio Art Centers International in Florence, Italy, where she was deeply inspired by the Renaissance masters.
Cubberly-Yeager’s work explores the issue of identity, both general and personal, through portraiture and self-portraiture. Utilizing the same banal reference image as a starting point, her aim is to make as many iterations of the image -- herself -- as possible. The mediums range from the traditional (oil, charcoal, wood-cut) to the unexpected (wool, coffee, beads). Much like a child plays “dress-up”, trying on various costumes and assuming different identities, these works are infused with a sense of play.
The repetition and redundancy speaks to the phenomenon that occurs when a word, repeated over and over again, begins to sound utterly bizarre and completely lose its meaning. In this act of repeating, Cubberly-Yeager breaks down identity in a similar manner -- to separate and see the strangeness -- in order to reconstruct and be able to see the reality.
So, there it is, folks. Wish me luck. See you in 6 weeks!